Bad news today. I have to go back to the specialist tomorrow. We are going to go ahead and proceed with the injectable medications. When I talked to the nurse she told me that my doctor would probably want to do an Inteuterine Insemination. I really wasn't prepared for that, but the more I think about it, the more I understand why.

Doing the IUI will increase our chances this cycle. A cycle with injectable medications is very costly, and because my insurance doesn't cover ANY infertility cost, it's a big chunk of extra money to come up with every month. We decided to go ahead and do the treatments this month, but if they don't work out, we are going to take some time off from all treatments. I don't know how long that will be. We'll decide when we get there. Hopefully this month's treatment does the job and we get a blessing.

Today at work was really hard. After the reality of the situation struck me, I was so weepy all day. I spent most of my lunch time crying. I HATE that I let this affect me so much each cycle. Each time I think I am prepared, and when I have to make that phone call, I lose it. I didn't cry in front of my students, but I think they knew something was up. They were all so good and tried so hard today. They really are awesome kids!

I am trying to look forward to the weekend. We are having our families over for a cook-out Mother's Day afternoon. We love spending time with our families, so I think it will be a nice day to just hang out and not worry.